All the while growing up I was told to watch my sister and if she got hurt or into any trouble I had to answer as much as she did because I am the elder of the two and I was supposed to watch out for her. As an adult I have been yelled at by my mother and sister for not leaving my two cents out in regard to my sister's life----how do you turn off years and years of "being in charge" overnight? Now here I am again......where do I fall now?
I cannot wrap my head around it: my beautiful, funny (more like hilarious for those of you who knew her before the surgeries), fun sister had to have surgeries 16 and 17 (I think....more than 15 less than 20 at this point---all within 6 1/2 years) on her brain. Her body fails to circulate spinal fluid correctly so it pools in the lower region of her skull causing her brain to run out of room and be SQUISHED! The doc put a shunt in which was supposed to do the circulation but shunt after shunt something fails to work properly. The first surgery was to replace the non-working shunt then something went awry. I don't know why (info hasn't been real clear), but the doc felt she needed a CAT scan and it showed that the new shunt wasn't working and that there was bleeding in her brain. Into surgery she went again---ON THE SAME F-ING DAY!!!!! They stopped the bleeding and got the shunt working buuuuuuuutttttt we are now told that it was a stroke she had. Her speech is very slurred, her memory worse than before, she cannot walk and has to re-learn how to use her right leg and arm. The worst part of the whole thing is that her mind is there enough to know that she has lost her mind.
I just want to crawl into bed and never come out. This is my only sibling; my best friend and worst enemy. We have fought with deadly weapons and we have laughed til we've peed our pants.
She is not GONE, the doc said she should be able to recover, somewhat but it is based on every individual case so statistics mean shit.
If you pray, please do so for her. If you believe in "good thoughts" please do so for her. I'm trying to stay positive.......
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Darci,
Please just stay close to Dayna. I have talked to her several times the last few days and she never remembers talking to me but she is still so funny even when she is "lost" as she calls it. She loves you more than words can say and needs you always. I know its hard to see someone you love go thru something like this but Heavenly Father doesnt give us more than we can handle and we both know what a fighter she is. Please know that I am praying for your family and that I put her name in the temple so there are alot of prayers out there for her. If you need anything, please let me know.
Love,
Amy
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